dating

Here's the cold hard truth on Christian dating: it's hard!
In the world it's so easy to get into a relationship. You like someone, they like you back, you start seeing each other. When you're a Christian - you like someone, they're focusing on God, you realise you should be too.
Honestly, I'm not trying to sound up myself but if I wanted a worldly relationship I think I'd be able to get one fairly easily, and quickly. I know because I've done it numerous times. Whereas Christian dating, I haven't done. But it's what I want. I'm not complaning that I can't get a 'date', because I'm not worried about that. I just wanted to point out the such obvious difficulties of Christian and non-Christian dating.
Though Christian dating is harder to get into - it's more likely to end on good terms, if it even ends at all. Probably most of the Christians I know (whether in relationships or not) plan on marrying their boyfriend/girlfriend. However when it comes to non-Christian dating, it's so easy to get into - but a lot of people aren't planning on or even wanting to ever marry their boyfriend/girlfriend. Not saying all non-Christians date without the intention of marriage to their partner, I'm not even saying half - just a lot - that I know of personally.
These relationship types are a lot like the Christianity walk itself: you can either choose the hard, long road - which in the end has the best outcome: heaven; or you can choose the easy road with the worst outcome: hell. I know which path I'm choosing.

healing

It's frustrating... that I see God healing every one around me. And when it comes to my physical needs of healing, nothing. At first I guess I subconsciously doubted God, and hated that I was questioning him. But after much thought I've come to the realisation that maybe he is testing my faith? Because I know he is able to heal me, but because I initially questioned it maybe he's testing me.

I was recently told the story of Daniel, who needed healing and it took an angel 20 something days to get to him, because the devil was in the angels way. I definitely believe that a demon could be blocking the path for God's work or an angel to intervien with my situation. And it could very well be because of my inability to have faith without deeds... subconsciously.
I know God is real and able, in my head and my heart. I just need to work on believing it in my flesh.