rest in peace

On Sunday the 28th of February, my Pop would have turned 79. Four days later, my Nan turns 70.

For me, I find it very hard to accept that Pop is gone, even now 5 years after he died. So I can't even begin to imagine how my Nan feels.

My Pop died suddenly, he was having strokes behind his eyes, but the doctors couldn't pick it up until it was too late. One day, he went down for a nap and just never woke up. He died in the hospital early the next day. I look up to my Nan so much for her strength.

About a year ago I asked her "How did you just not kill yourself?" and shockingly she said she wanted to. But our family and God pulled her through. I can't mimagine losing the love of my life, and selfishly I hope I die before my husband, when the times comes.

I miss my Pop. He was my hero. I was his girl. He always said he'd cement me up and put me in a nunnary so nbo biys could ever hurt me. If only he actually did. As much as I'd hate to be a nunn (and obviously he wouldn't have actually done it), I wish he was still here to protect me from all the hurt in this life. Although, he was a strong willed man so the boys that have hurt me probably wouldn't be in great shape right now, ha.

In saying that, my Pop was the most amazing man. I look up to him with everything, he really was my hero. I loved him so much! I was at work a while back, and I opened a box of new clothes and they smelled like a mixture of beer and mothballs. They smelled just like my Pop. I ran to Mum and asked her what they remind her of, and she said her Dad, my Pop.

The 28th is going to be a hard day, it always is. My family will always love and miss my Pop but I know we will see him again one day, and I for one, cannot wait!

A girl I grew up with died recently. She was run over. She was so young, about 16. Life is so unfair. I'm so, so sick of people dying. Especially people dying who are not christians. I don't want anymore people to go to hell, satan has ruined enough lives I think!! I know the majority of people don't believe in God, and you don't have to right now. But He is real, you can fight me on this if you disagree but one day you'll find out the truth, and I really hope its not too late then.

Gods grace is amazing.



Rest in peace, Saville Davis, I will miss you, forever.

I love you.