Here's the cold hard truth on Christian dating: it's hard!
In the world it's so easy to get into a relationship. You like someone, they like you back, you start seeing each other. When you're a Christian - you like someone, they're focusing on God, you realise you should be too.
Honestly, I'm not trying to sound up myself but if I wanted a worldly relationship I think I'd be able to get one fairly easily, and quickly. I know because I've done it numerous times. Whereas Christian dating, I haven't done. But it's what I want. I'm not complaning that I can't get a 'date', because I'm not worried about that. I just wanted to point out the such obvious difficulties of Christian and non-Christian dating.
Though Christian dating is harder to get into - it's more likely to end on good terms, if it even ends at all. Probably most of the Christians I know (whether in relationships or not) plan on marrying their boyfriend/girlfriend. However when it comes to non-Christian dating, it's so easy to get into - but a lot of people aren't planning on or even wanting to ever marry their boyfriend/girlfriend. Not saying all non-Christians date without the intention of marriage to their partner, I'm not even saying half - just a lot - that I know of personally.
These relationship types are a lot like the Christianity walk itself: you can either choose the hard, long road - which in the end has the best outcome: heaven; or you can choose the easy road with the worst outcome: hell. I know which path I'm choosing.
Friday, December 31, 2010
Monday, December 6, 2010
healing
It's frustrating... that I see God healing every one around me. And when it comes to my physical needs of healing, nothing. At first I guess I subconsciously doubted God, and hated that I was questioning him. But after much thought I've come to the realisation that maybe he is testing my faith? Because I know he is able to heal me, but because I initially questioned it maybe he's testing me.
I was recently told the story of Daniel, who needed healing and it took an angel 20 something days to get to him, because the devil was in the angels way. I definitely believe that a demon could be blocking the path for God's work or an angel to intervien with my situation. And it could very well be because of my inability to have faith without deeds... subconsciously.
I know God is real and able, in my head and my heart. I just need to work on believing it in my flesh.
I was recently told the story of Daniel, who needed healing and it took an angel 20 something days to get to him, because the devil was in the angels way. I definitely believe that a demon could be blocking the path for God's work or an angel to intervien with my situation. And it could very well be because of my inability to have faith without deeds... subconsciously.
I know God is real and able, in my head and my heart. I just need to work on believing it in my flesh.
Wednesday, December 1, 2010
Saturday, November 20, 2010
Tuesday, November 16, 2010
Christ, the beautiful truth
Jesus died approximately 1,980 years ago (give or take 5 or 6 years). I get this information from knowing that Jesus died when he was 33 years old, and around 30 A.D, and since it's now 2010, just take 30 years off that. Or 33. I said approximately.
We're still celebrating His birth. Every Christmas, we celebrate His birth. The moment Jesus Christ came into this world. He was born in Bethlehem, but lived in Galilee. These are actual facts, without the bible. Jesus was in fact an actual person, look in history books.
Surely that means something. The fact that nearly 2,000 years after Christ's death, we still celebrate His birth. Surely? A 'religion' that's lasted this long, and celebrated and taken on by the whole world. Certain aspects like Jesus' birth, death and resurrection... the whole world celebrates these days: Christmas and Easter. The thing is, they don't realise they're Christ oriented. Or they don' care.
The truth is ...
Jesus would have died for them; for you; for that one person whose life is filled with hate, rape and murder... Jesus still loves them, and would have died for them. It's really hard to understand.
"The Lord is good to all; He has compassion on all He has made." - Psalm 145:9 ... 'all He has made' ... all He made' ... 'all He made. That is EVERY THING, and EVERY ONE. Every creature, and being, and object, and fragment... God has compassion for. Sometimes His grace is just too much to handle.
Faith, hope, love.
CONTINUED ...
After writing this blog I found out MORE information. I was thinking that A.D meant 'After Death', when in fact it means 'Anno Domini'... which is Latin for 'in the year of our Lord'. Which makes my theory EVEN BETTER! Because Jesus died around 30 A.D, and he started his minisrty at the age of 30, and died when he was 33. So to me, this means that A.D is for when Jesus reigned. The year of the Lord.
Here is my heart, You can have it all.
We're still celebrating His birth. Every Christmas, we celebrate His birth. The moment Jesus Christ came into this world. He was born in Bethlehem, but lived in Galilee. These are actual facts, without the bible. Jesus was in fact an actual person, look in history books.
Surely that means something. The fact that nearly 2,000 years after Christ's death, we still celebrate His birth. Surely? A 'religion' that's lasted this long, and celebrated and taken on by the whole world. Certain aspects like Jesus' birth, death and resurrection... the whole world celebrates these days: Christmas and Easter. The thing is, they don't realise they're Christ oriented. Or they don' care.
The truth is ...
Jesus would have died for them; for you; for that one person whose life is filled with hate, rape and murder... Jesus still loves them, and would have died for them. It's really hard to understand.
"The Lord is good to all; He has compassion on all He has made." - Psalm 145:9 ... 'all He has made' ... all He made' ... 'all He made. That is EVERY THING, and EVERY ONE. Every creature, and being, and object, and fragment... God has compassion for. Sometimes His grace is just too much to handle.
Faith, hope, love.
CONTINUED ...
After writing this blog I found out MORE information. I was thinking that A.D meant 'After Death', when in fact it means 'Anno Domini'... which is Latin for 'in the year of our Lord'. Which makes my theory EVEN BETTER! Because Jesus died around 30 A.D, and he started his minisrty at the age of 30, and died when he was 33. So to me, this means that A.D is for when Jesus reigned. The year of the Lord.
Here is my heart, You can have it all.
Monday, October 4, 2010
praise report
So, I just got back from Western Australia. I was really surprised by my dad and his familes openness about my relationship with God.
1. they asked me plenty of questions, which thankfully I was able to answer easily.
2. we were having dinner one night, and the radio was on and dad goes "You'll be happy to knbow we listen to this radio station all the time" and I was like "Why?" and he goes "Because it's a christian radio station. Wel listen to it because they hardly have any ads and they play good music" and we got talking about whether they play many songs about God, and it turns out they do sometimes.
3. then I said "Speaking of God, do you want to come to church with me on Sunday?" and they'd already made plans before I was even coming... so they didn't, but they said they would have if they weren't busy. Because "it's a big part of your life now, so I'd like to check it out"
4. dad told me I could say 'grace' before dinner one night... I didn't have the oportunity in the end, but the fact that he said I could is a good sign.
5. after church my step mum sat down with my bible and was reading a bit of Ephesians. She was pointing out parts that she liked and agreed with, like mainly "honour your mother and father" and even suggested to my dad that they put that verse up in the house for the girls top see. She was also saying how she liked the fact that I had written in some parts, that were questioning what it said. She ended up flicking through a fair bit
6. during her bible flick, she found a verse that stated that we should come to God and ask him for things confidently.
7. I had the oportunity to talk to dad about the power of our tongue, as in the power of our words. Ad I was explaining how we don't need to believe in God to believe that what we say has great power. And he was very open to this.
That's probably about it, but that's amazing! I didn't think they'd be that open to Jesus. I look forward to the day when they come to know the Lord :)
1. they asked me plenty of questions, which thankfully I was able to answer easily.
2. we were having dinner one night, and the radio was on and dad goes "You'll be happy to knbow we listen to this radio station all the time" and I was like "Why?" and he goes "Because it's a christian radio station. Wel listen to it because they hardly have any ads and they play good music" and we got talking about whether they play many songs about God, and it turns out they do sometimes.
3. then I said "Speaking of God, do you want to come to church with me on Sunday?" and they'd already made plans before I was even coming... so they didn't, but they said they would have if they weren't busy. Because "it's a big part of your life now, so I'd like to check it out"
4. dad told me I could say 'grace' before dinner one night... I didn't have the oportunity in the end, but the fact that he said I could is a good sign.
5. after church my step mum sat down with my bible and was reading a bit of Ephesians. She was pointing out parts that she liked and agreed with, like mainly "honour your mother and father" and even suggested to my dad that they put that verse up in the house for the girls top see. She was also saying how she liked the fact that I had written in some parts, that were questioning what it said. She ended up flicking through a fair bit
6. during her bible flick, she found a verse that stated that we should come to God and ask him for things confidently.
7. I had the oportunity to talk to dad about the power of our tongue, as in the power of our words. Ad I was explaining how we don't need to believe in God to believe that what we say has great power. And he was very open to this.
That's probably about it, but that's amazing! I didn't think they'd be that open to Jesus. I look forward to the day when they come to know the Lord :)
Tuesday, September 21, 2010
Thursday, August 26, 2010
knees to the earth
Wonderful Savior, my heart belongs to Thee. I will remember always the blood You shed for me. Wonderful Savior, my heart will know Your worth. So I will embrace You always as I walk this earth. Be blessed, be loved, be lifted high. Be treasured here, be glorified. I owe my life to You, oh Lord. Here I am. Beautiful Jesus, how may I bless Your heart? Knees to the earth I bow down to everything You are. Beautiful Jesus, You are my only worth. So I will embrace You always as I walk this earth. Wonderful Savior, my heart belongs to Thee. I will remember always the blood You shed for me. Wonderful Savior, my heart will know Your worth. So I will embrace You always as I walk this earth.Be blessed, be loved, be lifted high. Be treasured here, be glorified. I owe my life to You oh Lord. Here I amBeautiful Jesus, how may I bless Your heart? Knees to the earth I bow down to everything You are. Beautiful Jesus, You are my only worth. So I will embrace You always as I walk this earth.
Saturday, August 21, 2010
unveiling
Last night, God revieled himself to my friends and myself. Yeah, you read right. GOD REVIELED HIMSELF TO US.
It was around 3am, and we were watching a documentry about witches and warlocks being saved by the Holy Spirit. So anyway, we were watching away - all getting goose bumps because it was so touching - and the door swings open. Not fully, but enough to notice. Then there's a flash of hyper-white light... and it goes. So we're freaking out a little, and start praying in tongues; then it happened again. We were all just screaming in amazement, and we ran out to the lounge room screaming JESUS IS LORD, YES JESUS! He was there! He was in the lounge room seconds before we were. He was physically there!!
After proclaiming his glorious name for ages, we put on worship music and had the maddest worship sesh... in my friends lounge room... at 3am. Who knew. Oh man, it was the most amazing thing I've experienced. We were all just crying because it was so glorious!
Okay, so about 10 minutes before this all happened, I was near the door. And I felt Gods presence. But I dodn't know it was his presence because I've never felt it so strongly before. And it actually scared me. Until the light flashes, and then I was just like WOW! There is absolutely no denying that my God is real! I can never doubt this! I can never live without God! I can never doubt God! I'll be worshipping him forever! That is the biggest priveledge!
We were born to praise him!
It was around 3am, and we were watching a documentry about witches and warlocks being saved by the Holy Spirit. So anyway, we were watching away - all getting goose bumps because it was so touching - and the door swings open. Not fully, but enough to notice. Then there's a flash of hyper-white light... and it goes. So we're freaking out a little, and start praying in tongues; then it happened again. We were all just screaming in amazement, and we ran out to the lounge room screaming JESUS IS LORD, YES JESUS! He was there! He was in the lounge room seconds before we were. He was physically there!!
After proclaiming his glorious name for ages, we put on worship music and had the maddest worship sesh... in my friends lounge room... at 3am. Who knew. Oh man, it was the most amazing thing I've experienced. We were all just crying because it was so glorious!
Okay, so about 10 minutes before this all happened, I was near the door. And I felt Gods presence. But I dodn't know it was his presence because I've never felt it so strongly before. And it actually scared me. Until the light flashes, and then I was just like WOW! There is absolutely no denying that my God is real! I can never doubt this! I can never live without God! I can never doubt God! I'll be worshipping him forever! That is the biggest priveledge!
We were born to praise him!
Friday, August 20, 2010
21/08/2010 election
"Therefore, you kings, be wise, be warned, you rulers of the earth. Serve the LORD with fear and celebrate his rule with trembling. Kiss his son, or he will be angry and you and your ways will be destroyed, for his wrath can flare up in a moment. Blessed are all who take refuge in him" - Psalm 2:10-12
Okay, it's a bit full on. A bit "Old Testement" - literally, but God isn't going to destroy us, the rainbow is his promise of that - but we really do need leaders who AT LEAST believe there is a God. One who proclaims JESUS IS LORD would be preferred; but an athiest leader... no thanks!
Okay, it's a bit full on. A bit "Old Testement" - literally, but God isn't going to destroy us, the rainbow is his promise of that - but we really do need leaders who AT LEAST believe there is a God. One who proclaims JESUS IS LORD would be preferred; but an athiest leader... no thanks!
Wednesday, August 18, 2010
how big is your God?
Recently, my flame has grown so much. But I still find myself going extended periods of time without aknowledging God. It's in the moments I do spend with him though, that I feel myself growing so much. And it feels incredible. In the past few weeks I've been stuck with the question "How big is your God?"
How big is my God? He is so infinately huge, it blows me away. I can't even begin to comprehend how big he is. I couldn't even, ever imagine how big my God is. Sometimes, I forget how in control he is... and then when I remember - I'm like "WOW!" - how can I forget this for even a second? If my God wanted to, he could move a mountain, a building, an entire city. When my God speaks, mountains tremble; oceans roar; and worlds come into existance! This is pretty powerful stuff! I am so blessed to be his daughter. A daughter of the most high King! No one else will take up my entire heart like my God does! I need to pray for more hunger and anguish so that I can be closer to him. I will worship 24/7. The devil has no hold of my life, in Jesus name!
How big is my God? He is so infinately huge, it blows me away. I can't even begin to comprehend how big he is. I couldn't even, ever imagine how big my God is. Sometimes, I forget how in control he is... and then when I remember - I'm like "WOW!" - how can I forget this for even a second? If my God wanted to, he could move a mountain, a building, an entire city. When my God speaks, mountains tremble; oceans roar; and worlds come into existance! This is pretty powerful stuff! I am so blessed to be his daughter. A daughter of the most high King! No one else will take up my entire heart like my God does! I need to pray for more hunger and anguish so that I can be closer to him. I will worship 24/7. The devil has no hold of my life, in Jesus name!
Wednesday, July 21, 2010
Monday, July 19, 2010
Sunday, July 18, 2010
Saturday, July 17, 2010
love! love... love?
Love! Love... love? How do people ever start loving or even liking eachother at the same time? I'm not suggesting that love doesn't exist, but seriously how do two people fall for eachother at the same time? The thought seems impossible. I think, two people can never just fall for eachother at the same time; I think one person likes the other, and then the other person discovers the other persons feelings and likes the attention and in return likes them back... but without even realising. To have someone you like, like you back is a pretty great achievement. But to have the person you love, love you back... you're the luckiest person in the whole world.
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
oh how i've missed you
It's been a while since I've written a blog hey. I have one topic in particular to talk about;
In Woy Woy there were an old homeless couple. Literally, they are old. So anyway, my family decided to take them in and they've been staying with us. They're really lovely people, their names are Hank and Marina. Their story is: they moved down from Queensland to live with a friend, they have no money and the friends land lord said they can't stay with this friend anymore. So they had to leave, but had no where to go. They were homeless for a few weeks before we found them. So I'm not saying this to get glory or praise, because they had actually been praying for a way out. And I'm so happy that through God we were able to be their way out! But unfortunately our land lord said they can't stay with us anymore, so we got them emergency accomodation. But that's only for 4 days. So I'm really praying that they get set up with something, and since we've already done all we can - someone else answers their prayers!
Another thing about them, Hank really looks like my Pop. And it's been hard having him at our house. Even my nan called him Sav the other day. Sav was my pops name. I re-he-he-eally miss my pop. Like, tonnes.
In Woy Woy there were an old homeless couple. Literally, they are old. So anyway, my family decided to take them in and they've been staying with us. They're really lovely people, their names are Hank and Marina. Their story is: they moved down from Queensland to live with a friend, they have no money and the friends land lord said they can't stay with this friend anymore. So they had to leave, but had no where to go. They were homeless for a few weeks before we found them. So I'm not saying this to get glory or praise, because they had actually been praying for a way out. And I'm so happy that through God we were able to be their way out! But unfortunately our land lord said they can't stay with us anymore, so we got them emergency accomodation. But that's only for 4 days. So I'm really praying that they get set up with something, and since we've already done all we can - someone else answers their prayers!
Another thing about them, Hank really looks like my Pop. And it's been hard having him at our house. Even my nan called him Sav the other day. Sav was my pops name. I re-he-he-eally miss my pop. Like, tonnes.
Sunday, June 20, 2010
a proper decision by the courts... for a change
The argument was that it was unfair that atheists had no such recognized days. The case was brought before a judge. After listening to the passionate presentation by the lawyer, the judge banged his gavel declaring,"Case dismissed!"
The lawyer immediately stood objecting to the ruling saying, "Your honor, how can you possibly dismiss this case? The Christians have Christmas, Easter and others. The Jews have Passover, Yom Kippur and Hanukkah, yet my client and all other atheists have no such holidays.?"
The judge leaned forward in his chair saying, "But you do. Your client, counsel, is woefully ignorant." The lawyer said, "Your Honor, we are unaware of any special observance or holiday for atheists." The judge said, "The calendar says April 1st is April Fools Day. Psalm 14:1 states, 'The fool says in his heart, there is no God.' Thus, it is the opinion of this court, that if your client says there is no God, then he is a fool. Therefore, April 1st is his day. Court is adjourned."
The lawyer immediately stood objecting to the ruling saying, "Your honor, how can you possibly dismiss this case? The Christians have Christmas, Easter and others. The Jews have Passover, Yom Kippur and Hanukkah, yet my client and all other atheists have no such holidays.?"
The judge leaned forward in his chair saying, "But you do. Your client, counsel, is woefully ignorant." The lawyer said, "Your Honor, we are unaware of any special observance or holiday for atheists." The judge said, "The calendar says April 1st is April Fools Day. Psalm 14:1 states, 'The fool says in his heart, there is no God.' Thus, it is the opinion of this court, that if your client says there is no God, then he is a fool. Therefore, April 1st is his day. Court is adjourned."
Tuesday, June 15, 2010
Friday, June 11, 2010
waiting
I've been staring at the sky tonight, marvelling and passing time. Wondering what to do with daylight until I can make you mine. I've been thinking of changing my mind, it never stays the same for long. But of all the things I know for sure: you are the one I want! I'll be waiting for you baby. I'll be holding back the darkest night. Love is waiting util we're ready, until it's right. Love is waiting!
bare with me
Okay, this whole blog is going to sound really bad and like I'm up myself, but I'm not. Keep in mind: I'm simply making an observation.
My whole life, well, not my whole life, but since I was interested in boys I've been able to pretty much have any guy I wanted. I don't think I'm hot stuff or anything, but I wanted a guy and I got him, that's just how it worked. And now... that's not the case. I'm not sure if my taste has grown and I'm just going for better guys that know they'r ebetter, and can get better than me? Or if I used to be baben' and now I'm just Ash? Hahaha, this topic is silly but it was on my mind. OR, if guys are just evolving and having higher standards? Whatever the case, I don't like it. I re-he-he-healy like this guy and I'm pretty sure he couldn't care less. Sometimes life sucks like that.
But it's not all about relationships or 'hook-ups' at all. Although those small things make you - make me - happy it's about living souly for my King. It's hard but lately I've also been thinking about completely handing my life over to Jesus and living for him, talking for him, breathing for him, and ewven sleeping for him. Because he deserves that! If he was willing to give up his son for me, I can give my life to him!
In Matthew it says to "Seek first the kingdom of God. The promise is made that if we seek it first, and its righteousness, all earthly wants will be supplied." God knows what I want, I just have to wait for it and press into God! He will give me the desires of my heart!
Patience
God is able
My whole life, well, not my whole life, but since I was interested in boys I've been able to pretty much have any guy I wanted. I don't think I'm hot stuff or anything, but I wanted a guy and I got him, that's just how it worked. And now... that's not the case. I'm not sure if my taste has grown and I'm just going for better guys that know they'r ebetter, and can get better than me? Or if I used to be baben' and now I'm just Ash? Hahaha, this topic is silly but it was on my mind. OR, if guys are just evolving and having higher standards? Whatever the case, I don't like it. I re-he-he-healy like this guy and I'm pretty sure he couldn't care less. Sometimes life sucks like that.
But it's not all about relationships or 'hook-ups' at all. Although those small things make you - make me - happy it's about living souly for my King. It's hard but lately I've also been thinking about completely handing my life over to Jesus and living for him, talking for him, breathing for him, and ewven sleeping for him. Because he deserves that! If he was willing to give up his son for me, I can give my life to him!
In Matthew it says to "Seek first the kingdom of God. The promise is made that if we seek it first, and its righteousness, all earthly wants will be supplied." God knows what I want, I just have to wait for it and press into God! He will give me the desires of my heart!
Patience
God is able
Saturday, June 5, 2010
Thursday, June 3, 2010
Wednesday, June 2, 2010
No man or woman is worth your tears, & the one who is, won't make you cry. Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have. A true friend is someone who reaches for your hand & touches your heart. The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them knowing you can' t have them. Never frown, even when you are sad, because you never know who is falling in love with your smile. To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world. Don't waste your time on someone, who isn't willing to waste their time on you. Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one, so that when we finally meet the person, we will know how to be grateful. Don't cry because it is over, smile because it happened. There's always going to be people that hurt you so what you have to do is keep on trusting & just be more careful about who you trust next time around... Make yourself a better person & know who you are before you try & know someone else & expect them to know you. Don't try so hard, the best things come when you least expect them to. WHATEVER HAPPENS, HAPPENS FOR A REASON.
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
the cure for cancer
You can actually cure cancer by going on Dr Max Gersons raw diet of fruits and vegetables. It's amazing! Thousands of patients are still alive today, many, many, many years after they were meant to die in months from cancer.
That's a load of crap?
It's actualy not. I saw a documentary about it. By clensing your body with the right food you actually can cure cancer. The doctors aren't allowed to tell you because it doesn't make them money. Chemo is just poison and will most likely kill you. There was actually a lady who had cancer at the same time as 3 other women and the other 3 had chemo and she went on the Gerson diet, and the three women died, and guess what 10 years later she's still alive and hasn't had any signs of cancer back since.
Surely this is a joke?
yer i don't believe it. doctors not allowed to tell patients hmmm?
They want you to invest in drugs and treatments that get them money. Think about it, it makes sense. My minds open to anything now. What about those theories that no ones been to the moon, it was all filmed in a studio; and that 9/11 was planned by the Americans, it wasn't an accident. If you actually look at footage the building explodes before the plane even hits it.
These things sound crazy and untrue, but that doesn't mean they're not real. Some people just DON'T care about everyone else.
This is straight from my biomedical science degree... but pretty sure cancer is caused by genetic mutations that cause uncontrolled growth. The body can't fight cancer because the cancer cells still have the body's markers, so immune cells won't attack them. No amount of any food can change that. Chemo and surgery are the best options?
Let's agree to disagree. Because your theories are probably true but that doesn't explain thousands of people beating cancer by simply a raw diet and being on the Gerson diet. The proof is there, and theres no way the Gerson Instetute would have or even been able to pay off THOUSANDS of people. Not only that, but there are thousands of other people that have been heald from other diseases.
I doubt that. If people knew what would cure cancer they wouldn't hide it from patients. Yes they all want money but I'm sure then aren't selfish enough to chose money over saving someones life?
I highly doubt many doctors even know about it.
THE THEORY: ""There is no cancer in normal metabolism," wrote Max Gerson, M.D. ( 1881-1959) believed that cancer cannot occur unless the functions of the
liver, the pancreas, and the immune system as well as other body functions have degenerated.
Cancer, in his theory, results from faulty metabolism due to poor nutrition and long-term
exposure to pesticides, chemical fertilizers, air and water pollution, and other irritants that
increasingly saturate the environment."
"Throughout our lives our bodies are being filled with a variety of disease and cancer causing pollutants. These toxins reach us through the air we breathe, the food we eat, the medicines we take and the water we drink. As more of these poisons are used every day and cancer rates continue to climb, being able to turn to a proven, natural, detoxifying treatment like the Gerson Therapy is not only reassuring, but necessary.
The Gerson Therapy is a powerful, natural treatment that boosts your body's own immune system to heal cancer, arthritis, heart disease, allergies, and many other degenerative diseases. One aspect of the Gerson Therapy that sets it apart from most other treatment methods is its all-encompassing nature. An abundance of nutrients from thirteen fresh, organic juices are consumed every day, providing your body with a superdose of enzymes, minerals and nutrients. These substances then break down diseased tissue in the body, while enemas aid in eliminating the lifelong buildup of toxins from the liver.
With its whole-body approach to healing, the Gerson Therapy naturally reactivates your body's magnificent ability to heal itself - with no damaging side-effects. Over 200 articles in respected medical literature, and thousands of people cured of their "incurable" diseases document the Gerson Therapy's effectiveness. The Gerson Therapy is one of the few treatments to have a 60 year history of success.
Although its philosophy of cleansing and reactivating the body is simple, the Gerson Therapy is a complex method of treatment requiring significant attention to detail. While many patients have made full recoveries practicing the Gerson Therapy on their own, for best results we encourage starting treatment at a Gerson Institute licensed treatment center."
If it actually did cure cancer, then they would know about it?
"There is massive well documented scientific evidence that even people with advanced cancer, can reverse and cure the cancer, with diet and detoxifying, restoring their body's natural defense systems, from within. There is hope!
Because this can be done without surgery, radiation or pharmaceuticals there is no money in it for the sickness industries, which in reality control what is taught in medical schools. Thus, most doctors don't know about the Gerson Therapy, or, have been misled to believe that it is not proven to be effective."
"Cancer cannot occur in a normally functioning body because its defenses recognize and destroy any malignant cell that may develop or do not allow it to come into being at all. The immune system plays the leading role in the group of defenses. It recognizes a malignant cell as a foreign invader and attacks and destroys it, as it would any ... See Moreintruding germ or virus. However, the immune system, along with the other defenses (e.g., the enzyme and hormone systems and the proper mineral balances), consists of organs and glands that need proper nutrients, which can function only if they are not blocked by toxins. When those conditions don't apply, the defenses are unable to fulfill their task, and there is nothing to stop the malignant cell from surviving and multiplying."
That's a load of crap?
It's actualy not. I saw a documentary about it. By clensing your body with the right food you actually can cure cancer. The doctors aren't allowed to tell you because it doesn't make them money. Chemo is just poison and will most likely kill you. There was actually a lady who had cancer at the same time as 3 other women and the other 3 had chemo and she went on the Gerson diet, and the three women died, and guess what 10 years later she's still alive and hasn't had any signs of cancer back since.
Surely this is a joke?
yer i don't believe it. doctors not allowed to tell patients hmmm?
They want you to invest in drugs and treatments that get them money. Think about it, it makes sense. My minds open to anything now. What about those theories that no ones been to the moon, it was all filmed in a studio; and that 9/11 was planned by the Americans, it wasn't an accident. If you actually look at footage the building explodes before the plane even hits it.
These things sound crazy and untrue, but that doesn't mean they're not real. Some people just DON'T care about everyone else.
This is straight from my biomedical science degree... but pretty sure cancer is caused by genetic mutations that cause uncontrolled growth. The body can't fight cancer because the cancer cells still have the body's markers, so immune cells won't attack them. No amount of any food can change that. Chemo and surgery are the best options?
Let's agree to disagree. Because your theories are probably true but that doesn't explain thousands of people beating cancer by simply a raw diet and being on the Gerson diet. The proof is there, and theres no way the Gerson Instetute would have or even been able to pay off THOUSANDS of people. Not only that, but there are thousands of other people that have been heald from other diseases.
I doubt that. If people knew what would cure cancer they wouldn't hide it from patients. Yes they all want money but I'm sure then aren't selfish enough to chose money over saving someones life?
I highly doubt many doctors even know about it.
THE THEORY: ""There is no cancer in normal metabolism," wrote Max Gerson, M.D. ( 1881-1959) believed that cancer cannot occur unless the functions of the
liver, the pancreas, and the immune system as well as other body functions have degenerated.
Cancer, in his theory, results from faulty metabolism due to poor nutrition and long-term
exposure to pesticides, chemical fertilizers, air and water pollution, and other irritants that
increasingly saturate the environment."
"Throughout our lives our bodies are being filled with a variety of disease and cancer causing pollutants. These toxins reach us through the air we breathe, the food we eat, the medicines we take and the water we drink. As more of these poisons are used every day and cancer rates continue to climb, being able to turn to a proven, natural, detoxifying treatment like the Gerson Therapy is not only reassuring, but necessary.
The Gerson Therapy is a powerful, natural treatment that boosts your body's own immune system to heal cancer, arthritis, heart disease, allergies, and many other degenerative diseases. One aspect of the Gerson Therapy that sets it apart from most other treatment methods is its all-encompassing nature. An abundance of nutrients from thirteen fresh, organic juices are consumed every day, providing your body with a superdose of enzymes, minerals and nutrients. These substances then break down diseased tissue in the body, while enemas aid in eliminating the lifelong buildup of toxins from the liver.
With its whole-body approach to healing, the Gerson Therapy naturally reactivates your body's magnificent ability to heal itself - with no damaging side-effects. Over 200 articles in respected medical literature, and thousands of people cured of their "incurable" diseases document the Gerson Therapy's effectiveness. The Gerson Therapy is one of the few treatments to have a 60 year history of success.
Although its philosophy of cleansing and reactivating the body is simple, the Gerson Therapy is a complex method of treatment requiring significant attention to detail. While many patients have made full recoveries practicing the Gerson Therapy on their own, for best results we encourage starting treatment at a Gerson Institute licensed treatment center."
If it actually did cure cancer, then they would know about it?
"There is massive well documented scientific evidence that even people with advanced cancer, can reverse and cure the cancer, with diet and detoxifying, restoring their body's natural defense systems, from within. There is hope!
Because this can be done without surgery, radiation or pharmaceuticals there is no money in it for the sickness industries, which in reality control what is taught in medical schools. Thus, most doctors don't know about the Gerson Therapy, or, have been misled to believe that it is not proven to be effective."
"Cancer cannot occur in a normally functioning body because its defenses recognize and destroy any malignant cell that may develop or do not allow it to come into being at all. The immune system plays the leading role in the group of defenses. It recognizes a malignant cell as a foreign invader and attacks and destroys it, as it would any ... See Moreintruding germ or virus. However, the immune system, along with the other defenses (e.g., the enzyme and hormone systems and the proper mineral balances), consists of organs and glands that need proper nutrients, which can function only if they are not blocked by toxins. When those conditions don't apply, the defenses are unable to fulfill their task, and there is nothing to stop the malignant cell from surviving and multiplying."
by john waller
I drug his name through godless places
And I've known shame that no child of his should know
I've seen pain on broken faces
Beyond all thought of hope
I was just too far from home
Still I always wondered when I closed my eyes
After all I've done
Could he run to me?
Would he kiss my face?
Could he even look at me?
After where I've been
should he take me back?
I would understand
I've disgraced him
But it would be amazing
If he still calls me son
With nothing left for me to bring him
I left my pride and turned my heart toward home
I saw my home on the horizon
And from a distance
I saw my Father
Watching for his own with forgiving eyes
After all I'd done
He just ran to me
Then he kissed my face
He would not let go of me
After where I'd been
He just welcomed me
I didn't understand
But he put his robe on me
It was so amazing
That he still called me son
One day as I breathe my last
And I know my days on earth have ended
When every hour is spent
I will close my eyes in amazement
And I'll hear angels
They'll be singing
Amazing Grace
Cause he will run to me
And he will kiss my face
He will not let go of me
After where I've been
He will welcome me
I won't understand
How he'll put his robe on me
It will be amazing
That he'll still call me son
Amazing grace how sweet the sound
When he calls me son
I once was lost but now I'm found
Cause he calls me Son
And I've known shame that no child of his should know
I've seen pain on broken faces
Beyond all thought of hope
I was just too far from home
Still I always wondered when I closed my eyes
After all I've done
Could he run to me?
Would he kiss my face?
Could he even look at me?
After where I've been
should he take me back?
I would understand
I've disgraced him
But it would be amazing
If he still calls me son
With nothing left for me to bring him
I left my pride and turned my heart toward home
I saw my home on the horizon
And from a distance
I saw my Father
Watching for his own with forgiving eyes
After all I'd done
He just ran to me
Then he kissed my face
He would not let go of me
After where I'd been
He just welcomed me
I didn't understand
But he put his robe on me
It was so amazing
That he still called me son
One day as I breathe my last
And I know my days on earth have ended
When every hour is spent
I will close my eyes in amazement
And I'll hear angels
They'll be singing
Amazing Grace
Cause he will run to me
And he will kiss my face
He will not let go of me
After where I've been
He will welcome me
I won't understand
How he'll put his robe on me
It will be amazing
That he'll still call me son
Amazing grace how sweet the sound
When he calls me son
I once was lost but now I'm found
Cause he calls me Son
♥
Take me as I am, or watch me as I go. Here's to ALL the girls who used to be his number one. The ones who waited all night for him to call, only to check the caller ID the next morning & be disappointed. The ones who made it through that bitter break up, dried your own tears, & moved on with your life, only to have him walk back in it months later like nothing ever happened. Those of you who cried on the first day you talked again because you knew exactly where this phone call was going. The ones who listened to him say, "I only want to be your friend", one day, and the next, listened to him say how much he loves & misses you. We deserve something, and this is our tribute. Here's to the ones that took him back, hoping that maybe this time, he was different, hoping that maybe people really do change. We listened to our friends tell us that we were stupid for even thinking about giving him another chance, caught crap from our parents, & even snuck around to see him for while. We went through the great stage with no fights all over again. We started this out thinking it would be just friends, & ended up falling in love with him again. We wanted nothing more in the world than to hear him tell us he loved us too, that even though things were bad in the past, they would be different this time. And when we finally heard it, it was like we were dreaming. This is for us. Here's to the ones who believed what he said, sat around all over again waiting for a phone call that might come in a few hours, or a few days. Here's for the tears cried and dried all over again. We wanted so desperately to believe that he was really busy, he couldn't possibly call us at that moment, or even that he fell asleep early. We trained ourselves to believe the lies because we wanted to believe we had found the one for us. We learned to settle for someone who didn't treat us the way we should be treated. Here's for the ones who did their hair and make up & put on their prettiest earrings, only to hear him say that he couldn't see us today. The ones who never believed it when people told us there might be someone else. We just couldn't believe that he could do this to us again. This is for those great girls who loved him more than words can say, & took him back no matter what happened last time because they couldn't bear to look back on their lives one day & wonder "what if". This is for the girls that stayed up all night long listening to him whine about an ex girlfriend who cheated on him, & cried during the entire conversation. The ones who hoped he would realize that he deserved better, that he deserved us. When he said that he loved you, but he was in love with her, he didn't mean it. This is for the ones that held on to something that was never there to begin with. This is for us girls, who somehow managed to get him to forget about her, & get him to tell us that he was in love with us again, only to have him tell us three weeks later that "things were going too fast, he needs time." Here's to the girls who couldn't cry to their friends because of how stupid they felt. The ones who held it all in when things came crumbling to pieces again. This is for the ones who couldn't bear to even tell their mom what was going on, for fear of an "I told you so." The ones that could just tell that they had made a mistake ever allowing him into their hearts & their dreams again. We knew that we deserved better the entire time, that we deserved a guy who would call when he said he was going to, one that would come see us whenever he got the chance, one that would really care about us. We just wanted the one that we loved like that. Here's for the ones that finally realized that he never gave a crap about them. Here's for the time that he broke your heart again. This is for those days spent trying to hold back the tears, & the tears that turned into anger, then disappointment. Here's for us girls who finally realized that we deserve better. This is for those confusing days, when you miss him & want nothing more than to hear his voice, or feel his arms around your waist. Stay strong and remember that relationships are like broken glass; sometimes it's better to leave it alone rather than try to put the pieces back together & get hurt. Remember the times you cried & how long it took you to even be able to look at another guy like that. When 'your song' comes on the radio, turn the station. When the day comes that he realizes what a mistake he made & tries calling, turn your phone off. When he tries coming to your house, don't answer the door. Think of the broken promises, and the lies, the manipulation & the tears, the wasted moments and staying up all night wondering where the fuck he was. Think of how your heart used to jump when your phone would vibrate in the middle of the night & how it fell to your stomach when you saw it wasn't him, and realized that once again, he hadn't called when he said he was going to. One day you'll find a guy who's worth all the tears, but he won't make you cry. You may think that you'll never care about someone like you did that guy that you always ran back to, but you will. It's going to hurt like hell, & it's going to need time to heal, but the point is it will heal.
Saturday, May 22, 2010
"friends"
Okay, so last night I was talking to this "friend", his name can be Bob. Anyway, previously that night he invited me over, then a while later he uninvited me because "some sluts are coming over" and he wanted to hook up. And, so later that night I said to him "Those girls are only sluts because of guys" Not directing anything at him, but pointing out how they wouldn't be sluts if guys didn't hook up with them, guys are the ones who make them sluts and I explained that. And so today he texts me and says I'm a joke and I sit here and crisicise him about being a slut, and like I can talk. Not cool. 1. I wasn't criticising him and I explained that last night, and again today. 2. I never called him a slut. And 3. I'm far from a slut.
So, I was like you're pretty mean. To which he replied "Yeah ok judge me all you want" and went to call me a sexiest..? Then I was like Is this all because you didn't get your own way with me? That's horrible, because he used to like me.. And he was like "Whatever AshI lose my nice side when a girl just wants to be friends because I've got heaps and I don't want anymore." Um... okay? Bob, sweetie, you're not going to get far in life at all if you stop being nice to every girl that only wants to be friends. It's okay to have friends that are JUST friends. Not everyone wants to hook up. And not everyone wants a relationship. And I said that to him, to which he replied "Whatever Ash girls would rather go out with someone like me than someone like your ex" YA THINK? Except theres not much difference between the two, they're both nasty at this point.
I'm actually disgusted that I just lost a friend, and the reason is because I don't like him back. What is up with that? Man up mate.
So, I was like you're pretty mean. To which he replied "Yeah ok judge me all you want" and went to call me a sexiest..? Then I was like Is this all because you didn't get your own way with me? That's horrible, because he used to like me.. And he was like "Whatever AshI lose my nice side when a girl just wants to be friends because I've got heaps and I don't want anymore." Um... okay? Bob, sweetie, you're not going to get far in life at all if you stop being nice to every girl that only wants to be friends. It's okay to have friends that are JUST friends. Not everyone wants to hook up. And not everyone wants a relationship. And I said that to him, to which he replied "Whatever Ash girls would rather go out with someone like me than someone like your ex" YA THINK? Except theres not much difference between the two, they're both nasty at this point.
I'm actually disgusted that I just lost a friend, and the reason is because I don't like him back. What is up with that? Man up mate.
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
Monday, May 17, 2010
decision making
Okay, so here's whats going on with me: My Dad messaged me yesterday and said "If we got you a good full time job and a great place to live (not with me) would you come to Perth?" And it's really got me thinking. I'm quite scared, it would be an amazing oportunity and there are many 'pros'. There is only one 'con' and it's pretty much I'd miss my family and friends here. It is only one thing, but it's a huge thing. Last night I was freaking right out on the thought of making this life changing decison, but now that I've slept on it I feel a bit better. I'm still VERY unsure as to what I am going to do, but I'm leaning more towards going at this point. I'd probably go at the end of this year or the start of next, and spend a year over there. But what if I meet my husband and never comeback? I couldn't, I want to come back! I will just not speak to any men while I'm there, my new friends will consist of only women, haha.
Something that is great is two of my friends have already said they'd think about coming with me, that would help. They were both pretty serious, but one more than the other. I would love if someone came with me. If I went I'd have to push myself into a new church, root myself in there straight away. This sucks though, I wish I could earn enough money in a job to pay bills, rent and other expences, and still have enough money left to come home every weekend. I'll miss my church! I could still go to my home church, it would be like I never left. But that is looking very unlikely. The flights would cost around $500 return, there goes that dream.
So anyway, I'm a little scared. Meeting new people and making new friends all over again. It's taken me two years to get where I am with my friens now, I love them, I can't imagine life without them. But I couldn't imagine life without Tasmanian friends, and Mr X, and I did okay. I know I'd be stupid to not take this offer. I probably will go, and that scares me because I have to say goodbye to my incredible friends. I've got this amazing oportuity, I have always had oportunity througout my life. That's Gods favour on my life.
Something that is great is two of my friends have already said they'd think about coming with me, that would help. They were both pretty serious, but one more than the other. I would love if someone came with me. If I went I'd have to push myself into a new church, root myself in there straight away. This sucks though, I wish I could earn enough money in a job to pay bills, rent and other expences, and still have enough money left to come home every weekend. I'll miss my church! I could still go to my home church, it would be like I never left. But that is looking very unlikely. The flights would cost around $500 return, there goes that dream.
So anyway, I'm a little scared. Meeting new people and making new friends all over again. It's taken me two years to get where I am with my friens now, I love them, I can't imagine life without them. But I couldn't imagine life without Tasmanian friends, and Mr X, and I did okay. I know I'd be stupid to not take this offer. I probably will go, and that scares me because I have to say goodbye to my incredible friends. I've got this amazing oportuity, I have always had oportunity througout my life. That's Gods favour on my life.
Monday, May 3, 2010
i hate growing up
Growing up is really the worst. My parents are putting so much pressure on me to go on the doll because I don't get enough hours at my current job. But the thing is, I don't want to have to apply for 10 jobs a week, because I don't want another stupid job. If I got another job it would be one to help my future career path. I'm so over this, they're like "Go to Centrelink" ... "get on the doll" ... "get a Healthcare card" I don't care! Frick, I hate how hard life wants to be sometimes. How would I even pay for Tafe or Uni, I'm wishful thinking and it's ridiculous. I might as well give up on any dream because I can't afford to study. Hex probably wouldn't even help me. Cya later future.
Thursday, April 29, 2010
WOW
So guess what faithful readers, Mr X is going to be a baby daddy. Yes, that's right, his new girlfriend (I think I named he Lovely in a previous post [who knows why]) 's eggo is preggo. That's one doodle that can't be undid. She's 2 months in. And no, I'm not starting or spreading rumours. Lovelys mum is bffe's with my bffe's mum; so Lovelys mum told me friends mum, who told her, who told me. Apparently Lovelys mum is happy. Is she crazy..? Lovely is only 18. And Mr X is 22 going on 16. I hate to say this in a post but everyone who knows either of them would already be very aware of this: they both are heavily into pot. That's vrey sad. I feel sorry for the baby if they don't quit their disgusting addiction. And I really hope Lovely doesn't continue to take drugs while she is pregnant. That would be attempting murder pretty much.
So anyway, I'm not really sure how I feel about this situation. Part of me is like "Sucked in" - as horrible as that is; and another part of me is like "Devo" because she was only the rebound to help get over me. She was meant to be in his life for a maximum of a few months, maybe a year and I know everyone falls in love with the rebound, but it never lasts. But in this case, it kind of has to now. And I guess I just didn't want him to be happy this soon after everything. Like I'm happy, but not in a relationship. He wasn't meant to move on a month later and stay with her forever. I'm pretty mean. But wow my head cannot comprehend this. Five months ago he was engaged to me, now he's baby daddy with someone else. I have to admit, it does amuse me slightly. Good luck to them.
So anyway, I'm not really sure how I feel about this situation. Part of me is like "Sucked in" - as horrible as that is; and another part of me is like "Devo" because she was only the rebound to help get over me. She was meant to be in his life for a maximum of a few months, maybe a year and I know everyone falls in love with the rebound, but it never lasts. But in this case, it kind of has to now. And I guess I just didn't want him to be happy this soon after everything. Like I'm happy, but not in a relationship. He wasn't meant to move on a month later and stay with her forever. I'm pretty mean. But wow my head cannot comprehend this. Five months ago he was engaged to me, now he's baby daddy with someone else. I have to admit, it does amuse me slightly. Good luck to them.
Monday, April 19, 2010
the definition of LOVE
You are good, you are good, when there's nothing good in me.
You are love, you are love, on display for all to see.
You are light, you are light, when the darkness closes in.
You are hope, you are hope, you have covered all my sin.
You are peace, you are peace, when my fear is crippiling.
You are true, you are true, even in my wandering.
You are joy, you are joy, you're the reason that I sing.
You are life, you are life, in you death has lost it's sting.
Oh, I'm running to your arms, I'm running to your arms.
The riches of your love will always be enough.
Nothing compares to your embrase, light of the world forever reign.
You are more, you are more, than my words will ever say.
You are Lord, you are Lord, all creation will proclaim.
You are here, you are here, in your presence I'm made whole.
You are God, you are God, of all else I'm letting go.
Oh, I'm running to your arms, I'm running to your arms.
The riches of your love will always be enough.
Nothing compares to your embrase, light of the world forever reign.
Oh, I'm running to your arms, I'm running to your arms.
The riches of your love will always be enough.
Nothing compares to your embrase, light of the world forever reign.
In my life, be lifted high.
In our world, be lifted high.
In our love, be lifted high.
In my life, be lifted high.
In our world, be lifted high.
In our love, be lifted high.
In my life, be lifted high.
In our world, be lifted high.
In our love, be lifted high.
In my life, be lifted high.
In our world, be lifted high.
In our love, be lifted high.
In my life, be lifted high.
In our world, be lifted high.
In our love, be lifted high.
In my life, be lifted high.
In our world, be lifted high.
In our love, be lifted high.
Oh, I'm running to your arms, I'm rinning to your arms.
The riches of your love will always be enough.
Nothing compares to your embrase, light of the world forever reign.
Oh, I'm running to your arms, I'm running to your arms.
The riches of your love will always be enough.
Nothing compares to your embrase, light of the world forever reign.
Forever Reign Reuben Morgan
You are love, you are love, on display for all to see.
You are light, you are light, when the darkness closes in.
You are hope, you are hope, you have covered all my sin.
You are peace, you are peace, when my fear is crippiling.
You are true, you are true, even in my wandering.
You are joy, you are joy, you're the reason that I sing.
You are life, you are life, in you death has lost it's sting.
Oh, I'm running to your arms, I'm running to your arms.
The riches of your love will always be enough.
Nothing compares to your embrase, light of the world forever reign.
You are more, you are more, than my words will ever say.
You are Lord, you are Lord, all creation will proclaim.
You are here, you are here, in your presence I'm made whole.
You are God, you are God, of all else I'm letting go.
Oh, I'm running to your arms, I'm running to your arms.
The riches of your love will always be enough.
Nothing compares to your embrase, light of the world forever reign.
Oh, I'm running to your arms, I'm running to your arms.
The riches of your love will always be enough.
Nothing compares to your embrase, light of the world forever reign.
In my life, be lifted high.
In our world, be lifted high.
In our love, be lifted high.
In my life, be lifted high.
In our world, be lifted high.
In our love, be lifted high.
In my life, be lifted high.
In our world, be lifted high.
In our love, be lifted high.
In my life, be lifted high.
In our world, be lifted high.
In our love, be lifted high.
In my life, be lifted high.
In our world, be lifted high.
In our love, be lifted high.
In my life, be lifted high.
In our world, be lifted high.
In our love, be lifted high.
Oh, I'm running to your arms, I'm rinning to your arms.
The riches of your love will always be enough.
Nothing compares to your embrase, light of the world forever reign.
Oh, I'm running to your arms, I'm running to your arms.
The riches of your love will always be enough.
Nothing compares to your embrase, light of the world forever reign.
Forever Reign Reuben Morgan
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
april 14th 2010
At this moment, there are 6,814,600,000 people in the world. Some are running scared. Some are coming home. Some tell lies to make it through the day. Others are just now facing the truth. Some are evil men, that war with good. And some are good, struggling with evil. 6 billion people in the world. 6 billion souls. And sometimes, all you need is one.
It's disgusting that there are about 27,000,000 people unaccounted for because they're being trafficked and in sex slavery.
It's disgusting that there are about 27,000,000 people unaccounted for because they're being trafficked and in sex slavery.
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
mother nature
Do you think tree's have feelings?
You may find this question wrong, dumb or even rhetorical, but think about it: tree's grow and breathe just like us, they even reproduce and die. So it might actually be possible that tree's have feelings. They also grow better when positive speach or music is around them constantly. But my question isn't do they have emotional feelings. My question is: do they have physical feelings? Imagine how painful it must be for a tree when someone rips off a leaf, that could be equivelant to someone ripping out a chunck of our hair. Or when a branch is cut off, that could be equivelant to someone cutting off a limb. Imagine how much pain we alone have put tree's through. They bleed. And we use their blood for our own cuts and wounds, like aloe vera. And oils like teetree, that's the life sucked out of a tree. Imagine if someone made an oil out of my bodily fluid after they killed me. Not nice. Hahaha I seem crazy, but this is an interesting topic, tree's could infact have feelings. If they are able to breathe, hear and grow, and have photosynthesis (plant sex) and then eventually die - what's to say they're much different than us in the sense that they are living? Obviously they don't have brains or souls, but senses?
You may find this question wrong, dumb or even rhetorical, but think about it: tree's grow and breathe just like us, they even reproduce and die. So it might actually be possible that tree's have feelings. They also grow better when positive speach or music is around them constantly. But my question isn't do they have emotional feelings. My question is: do they have physical feelings? Imagine how painful it must be for a tree when someone rips off a leaf, that could be equivelant to someone ripping out a chunck of our hair. Or when a branch is cut off, that could be equivelant to someone cutting off a limb. Imagine how much pain we alone have put tree's through. They bleed. And we use their blood for our own cuts and wounds, like aloe vera. And oils like teetree, that's the life sucked out of a tree. Imagine if someone made an oil out of my bodily fluid after they killed me. Not nice. Hahaha I seem crazy, but this is an interesting topic, tree's could infact have feelings. If they are able to breathe, hear and grow, and have photosynthesis (plant sex) and then eventually die - what's to say they're much different than us in the sense that they are living? Obviously they don't have brains or souls, but senses?
Saturday, April 10, 2010
this was not written by me
HELL EXPLAINED BY CHEMISTRY STUDENT
The following is an actual question given on a University of Washington chemistry mid term.
The answer by one student was so 'profound' that the professor shared it with colleagues, via the Internet, which is, of course, why we now have the pleasure of enjoying it as well :
Question: Is Hell exothermic (gives off heat) or endothermic (absorbs heat)?
Most of the students wrote proofs of their beliefs using Boyle's Law (gas cools when it expands and heats when it is compressed) or some variant.
One student, however, wrote the following:
First, we need to know how the mass of Hell is changing in time. So we need to know the rate at which souls are moving into Hell and the rate at which they are leaving. I think that we can safely assume that once a soul gets to Hell, it will not leave. Therefore, no souls are leaving. As for how many souls are entering Hell, let's look at the different religions that exist in the world today.
Most of these religions state that if you are not a member of their religion, you will go to Hell. Since there is more than one of these religions and since people do not belong to more than one religion, we can project that all souls go to Hell. With birth and death rates as they are, we can expect the number of souls in Hell to increase exponentially. Now, we look at the rate of change of the volume in Hell because Boyle's Law states that in order for the temperature and pressure in Hell to stay the same, the volume of Hell has to expand proportionately as souls are added.
This gives two possibilities:
1. If Hell is expanding at a slower rate than the rate at which souls enter Hell, then the temperature and pressure in Hell will increase until all Hell breaks loose.
2. If Hell is expanding at a rate faster than the increase of souls in Hell,then the temperature and pressure will drop until Hell freezes over.
So which is it?
If we accept the postulate given to me by Teresa during my Freshman year that, 'It will be a cold day in Hell before I sleep with you,' and take into account the fact that I slept with her last night, then number two must be true, and thus I am sure that Hell is exothermic and has already frozen over. The corollary of this theory is that since Hell has frozen over, it follows that it is not accepting any more souls and is therefore, extinct......leaving only Heaven, thereby proving the existence of a divine being which explains why, last night, Teresa kept shouting 'Oh my God.'
THIS STUDENT RECEIVED AN A+.
The following is an actual question given on a University of Washington chemistry mid term.
The answer by one student was so 'profound' that the professor shared it with colleagues, via the Internet, which is, of course, why we now have the pleasure of enjoying it as well :
Question: Is Hell exothermic (gives off heat) or endothermic (absorbs heat)?
Most of the students wrote proofs of their beliefs using Boyle's Law (gas cools when it expands and heats when it is compressed) or some variant.
One student, however, wrote the following:
First, we need to know how the mass of Hell is changing in time. So we need to know the rate at which souls are moving into Hell and the rate at which they are leaving. I think that we can safely assume that once a soul gets to Hell, it will not leave. Therefore, no souls are leaving. As for how many souls are entering Hell, let's look at the different religions that exist in the world today.
Most of these religions state that if you are not a member of their religion, you will go to Hell. Since there is more than one of these religions and since people do not belong to more than one religion, we can project that all souls go to Hell. With birth and death rates as they are, we can expect the number of souls in Hell to increase exponentially. Now, we look at the rate of change of the volume in Hell because Boyle's Law states that in order for the temperature and pressure in Hell to stay the same, the volume of Hell has to expand proportionately as souls are added.
This gives two possibilities:
1. If Hell is expanding at a slower rate than the rate at which souls enter Hell, then the temperature and pressure in Hell will increase until all Hell breaks loose.
2. If Hell is expanding at a rate faster than the increase of souls in Hell,then the temperature and pressure will drop until Hell freezes over.
So which is it?
If we accept the postulate given to me by Teresa during my Freshman year that, 'It will be a cold day in Hell before I sleep with you,' and take into account the fact that I slept with her last night, then number two must be true, and thus I am sure that Hell is exothermic and has already frozen over. The corollary of this theory is that since Hell has frozen over, it follows that it is not accepting any more souls and is therefore, extinct......leaving only Heaven, thereby proving the existence of a divine being which explains why, last night, Teresa kept shouting 'Oh my God.'
THIS STUDENT RECEIVED AN A+.
Sunday, March 28, 2010
ten days
The past ten days have been eventful. First I saw my Dad and my step mum and sisters; my mice had 3 babies. But I noticed like a week after they were born. They're growing so fast; I got my nose pierced and it's healing nicely. My boss noticed which got us into the biggest conversation about piercings and tattoo's, haha he's shocked that I have tattoo's. Oh, I also got blamed for starting a rumour about myself. Apparently I told people I slept with my friend, his girlfriend told me to watch my back, among other colourful things. Why would I start a rumour about myself? Why would anyone, especially a bad one? Wow, some people are so dumb. So anyway I wont be heading down to Tasmania anytime soon. 9 out of 10 of the teenagers and apparent "young adults" that live there (the East Coast) have servere SMALL TOWN SYNDROME and have nothing better to do than make other peoples lives hard. I've copped my fair share of abuse from people down there, some of it was deserved, but most of it not. I do not miss any of that at all. I have nothing to go to down there. The people have ruined the most beautiful place in the world for me. They have achieved their goal to make it as ugly as their hearts. However, there are a few exceptions, and they are the most amazing people. But those people I can count one two hands. Everyone else, is so so sad. They make me ashamed to say I grew up there. How much more sad is it that when they're not starting a brawl, they're taking drugs and having sex every weekend. That's not much of a life. Life is amazing, why waste it?
i've been thinking
Well, I haven't written a blog for a while. I was fasting the internet for a week and thought of so many blog topics in that time, but of course now I've forgotten them all. Why don't I just talk about something important. Okay, so I was in Sydney last weekend and saw so many homeless people. I realise that some of them actually choose that lifestyle but I drove past a man begging on the street, right on the path with his hands out, and everyone just walked past him. Out of the dozens of people I saw walk right by him, only 2 looked at him; but still kept walking. If I wasn't in a walking car I would have given him something. I suppose I could have comando-rolled out of the window, but I didn't. I'm not sure what to do in the situations where I see homeless people. Everything within me wants to give them money but I refrain because I'm scared they're just going to waste it on drugs, alcohol and cigarettes. This is why I think we should make up bags of essentials, like soap and shampoo, shaving equipment. And FOOD! Or even a blanket or a bottle of water. This would be very appreciated by them, I really believe!
Of course we can focus on problems around the world like starvation, thirst and sex slavery, of course, but we also need to focus on problems in our own backyard. Our community is our backyard and people in it need help too. There are even people who are so alone, who just need someone to talk to or to help them around the house. If they even have a house. I really want to do something about this! I also want to adopt a child. How awful it must feel to think no one wants you? Your very own family doesn't want you, or they couldn't have you? I want to give a child, or a number of children hope. Adoption wont be happening for a number of years though. But I can help homeless and needy and lonely people right now! I, we need to take a stand. All that seems to happen in the world is the current generation blames the previous one for all the problems in the world. Why don't we man up and instead of finding someone to blame, fix it! Fix all the problems ourselves. So that the next generation thanks us, instead of looking down on us for doing nothing. And lets face it, if we don't do something soon there wont be many generations left to come. The o-zone layer is that bad at the moment!
Of course we can focus on problems around the world like starvation, thirst and sex slavery, of course, but we also need to focus on problems in our own backyard. Our community is our backyard and people in it need help too. There are even people who are so alone, who just need someone to talk to or to help them around the house. If they even have a house. I really want to do something about this! I also want to adopt a child. How awful it must feel to think no one wants you? Your very own family doesn't want you, or they couldn't have you? I want to give a child, or a number of children hope. Adoption wont be happening for a number of years though. But I can help homeless and needy and lonely people right now! I, we need to take a stand. All that seems to happen in the world is the current generation blames the previous one for all the problems in the world. Why don't we man up and instead of finding someone to blame, fix it! Fix all the problems ourselves. So that the next generation thanks us, instead of looking down on us for doing nothing. And lets face it, if we don't do something soon there wont be many generations left to come. The o-zone layer is that bad at the moment!
Monday, March 15, 2010
A21
I didn't realise that today human trafficking is a huge problem. Approximately 27million (so a lot of) people are sold as slaves for work or sex, or whatever; and only 1% of them get rescued, so 99% of the people (mostly women and children) are sold and used for the rest of their lives, until they die or get murdered.
AND there are millions of children in third world countries that die before they turn 5. That's just not fair. They don't even have clean drinking water. The water they drink is full of bacteria that once swallowed is fatal. Some are even born with aids because of their parents, they have no hope.
AND there are women in some countries that are totally rejected and isolated for having aids AND some women even get their ears, nose and lips cut off, sometimes for no reason at all. There are campaignes that are raising money to restore these womens faces, plastic surgeons are willing to give them new faces, give them back what was taken from them.
And of course there are problems locally. Elderly people who have no one to help them. Some of them can't even do something as simple as changing a light bulb.
I don't know about you guys but I think this is all pretty disgusting and id like to do something about it! You know, you can buy a person in the trafficking "industry" for as little as $90. So I want to go buy heaps of trafficked people and set them free. Obviously I can't do that, but we need to come together and make a change. The A21 Campaign aims at human trafficing, we should all give them money to help all the people, to change the figure from 1% to 100% resued, lives restored. Human trafficking even goes on in Australia. This disappoints me, I had no idea, I am no longer proud of my country. The main country with the problem is Europe, and Mexico. Lets be the change people!
www.thea21campaign.org talks about ways we can help. One particular way that I am going to do as of now, is: FAST ON THE 21ST
"On the 21st day of every month, fast for the work The A21 Campaign is doing in Greece and around the world as together we stand in agreement to see the injustice of human trafficking abolished."
It also lists other ways we can help; start an awareness group, sponsorship, volunteers and many more. I ask that you consider others, and really try to help.
AND there are millions of children in third world countries that die before they turn 5. That's just not fair. They don't even have clean drinking water. The water they drink is full of bacteria that once swallowed is fatal. Some are even born with aids because of their parents, they have no hope.
AND there are women in some countries that are totally rejected and isolated for having aids AND some women even get their ears, nose and lips cut off, sometimes for no reason at all. There are campaignes that are raising money to restore these womens faces, plastic surgeons are willing to give them new faces, give them back what was taken from them.
And of course there are problems locally. Elderly people who have no one to help them. Some of them can't even do something as simple as changing a light bulb.
I don't know about you guys but I think this is all pretty disgusting and id like to do something about it! You know, you can buy a person in the trafficking "industry" for as little as $90. So I want to go buy heaps of trafficked people and set them free. Obviously I can't do that, but we need to come together and make a change. The A21 Campaign aims at human trafficing, we should all give them money to help all the people, to change the figure from 1% to 100% resued, lives restored. Human trafficking even goes on in Australia. This disappoints me, I had no idea, I am no longer proud of my country. The main country with the problem is Europe, and Mexico. Lets be the change people!
www.thea21campaign.org talks about ways we can help. One particular way that I am going to do as of now, is: FAST ON THE 21ST
"On the 21st day of every month, fast for the work The A21 Campaign is doing in Greece and around the world as together we stand in agreement to see the injustice of human trafficking abolished."
It also lists other ways we can help; start an awareness group, sponsorship, volunteers and many more. I ask that you consider others, and really try to help.
Monday, March 8, 2010
by jonti baylis
This is taken and edited by my friend. It is amazing. He is amazing. He captures the once beautiful world, and makes it beautiful again.
the ex factor
I've been thinking today, because I've been so bored!!! And it struck me that almost a year after me and my ex before my last ex broke up, I was still talking to him. Or at least trying to. Not to mention, I was having conversations with his new girlfriend, a year after hima dn I broke up. And only four months after the break up with my most recent ex, I have stopped talking to him, and trying. I don't want to talk to him. I feel no reason or need to, he makes me sick. But it's funny, even though when I was with my recent ex I thought my love for my first ex was nothing in comparison; it did take me longer to get over my ex before mt most recent ex. Wow all this ex talk, it's confusing to even me.
I just think it's really funny, although my other ex was my first everything else, he wasn't my first fiancee. Yuck I hate that I've been engaged and now am, I guess divorced in a sence. And even though I was engaged to my most recent ex, I feel no "connection" or ties to him. It took me roughly two months, maybe three, to get over him. However, my first ex - if I was to be completely honest with myself, I think I still had feelings for him while I was in the relationship with my recent ex. Like, I didn't love him, I "loved" my current boyfriend, but I still cared for him and wanted contact. But with my recent ex, pfft, he could probably die and I wouldn't blink. Okay thats a lie, I'd be pretty upset just because someone I was once so close to is now gone forever, but in sayng that he's dead to me now. That sounds really mean, but nothing compared to what he said to me: Before we broke up he was saying stuff to me like "I wish you were dead." - no exaggeration, he actually said that in all seriousness once... but my point is, I don't care about him at all anymore; only four months later, and I feel nothing towards him. I can even smell that stupid English Blazer cologne he wore and not get upset, it takes me back, but the memory doesn't hurt me anymore.
I think it has a lot to do with how horrible he was to me, and man i'm making him sound awful - and he really was - but I obviously have some taste, sometimes he was nice, like every tenth "blue moon". In the beginning he was absolutely amazing, he made me feel special every day, and worth it. Then after I was his "property" his true colours came out.
It's sad how much people change. I blame myself a little, for him changing so much. I wanted to change the fact that he smokes, it's wrong but it's also fair enough. I would think, that if you love someone enough you should be able to change one thing about you that you don't need. No way would I have ever wanted him to change who he was, just one little thing he did. And in the end I learned to be okay with it, he just couldn't do it around me because it's putrid. And somehow that changed him? I don't think so. I think he was always a horrible person, hiding behind this incredible guy, just waiting to come out. Does he even respect women? If he's telling someone he "loves" he wants them dead, then, wow. I'm glad it didn't get as far as physical abuse. It wouldn't have surprised me though, if it got that far. I wouldn't put it past him. There was one time I actually thought he was going to hit me, I was so scared, he was going off his face just because I didn't want to be alone at that stupid house we lived in. All I wanted was affection, for once. He ruined me.
I was so lonely, I lived with my fiancee but I was more lonely than I've ever been. More lonely than I am now and im single. Please explain how that works? No. I know how it works. I was in a worldly relationship with a selfish b****** who treated me like crap. I wanted him to notice me, I wanted affection and to be held and kissed like we used to do, I wanted to feel his love again. Even when he was home I was lonely, he didn't care about me at all. He didn't even help me. He didn't even comfort me. I asked him what he thought of me looks wise, because it had been that long since he'd said anything nice about me - he said "You're underaverage." and thought I was ridiculous when I got upset about it. Fair enough if I am, but far out he could have lied. And then he tried to tell me he was joking, but guess what, he never changed it. He never said anything better than underaverage. I was always just underaverage. I always will just be, underaverage. In his eyes anyway.
So I think I've explained to myself why it has taken me such a short time to get over him. If I could go back and change anything I wouldn't. Apart from making it so we never met, I wouldn't change the fact that we broke up. Actually, just before my birthday I broke up with him, because it was just crap. But then I missed him so i took him back. I would have not gone back to him if I could go back and change that. He was so unhealthy for me, he was like a poison ruining my life everytime I was with him. He was poisoning my thoughts, my self esteem, and my life.
Haha, I sound pretty messed up right now, but I actually am thoroughly enjoying life now, i've actually probably never been this happy. Thanks to him, for leaving me and giving me a chance of happiness :)
Weeping may endure for a night (there may be pain in the night), but Joy comes in the morning. Psalm 30:5
I just think it's really funny, although my other ex was my first everything else, he wasn't my first fiancee. Yuck I hate that I've been engaged and now am, I guess divorced in a sence. And even though I was engaged to my most recent ex, I feel no "connection" or ties to him. It took me roughly two months, maybe three, to get over him. However, my first ex - if I was to be completely honest with myself, I think I still had feelings for him while I was in the relationship with my recent ex. Like, I didn't love him, I "loved" my current boyfriend, but I still cared for him and wanted contact. But with my recent ex, pfft, he could probably die and I wouldn't blink. Okay thats a lie, I'd be pretty upset just because someone I was once so close to is now gone forever, but in sayng that he's dead to me now. That sounds really mean, but nothing compared to what he said to me: Before we broke up he was saying stuff to me like "I wish you were dead." - no exaggeration, he actually said that in all seriousness once... but my point is, I don't care about him at all anymore; only four months later, and I feel nothing towards him. I can even smell that stupid English Blazer cologne he wore and not get upset, it takes me back, but the memory doesn't hurt me anymore.
I think it has a lot to do with how horrible he was to me, and man i'm making him sound awful - and he really was - but I obviously have some taste, sometimes he was nice, like every tenth "blue moon". In the beginning he was absolutely amazing, he made me feel special every day, and worth it. Then after I was his "property" his true colours came out.
It's sad how much people change. I blame myself a little, for him changing so much. I wanted to change the fact that he smokes, it's wrong but it's also fair enough. I would think, that if you love someone enough you should be able to change one thing about you that you don't need. No way would I have ever wanted him to change who he was, just one little thing he did. And in the end I learned to be okay with it, he just couldn't do it around me because it's putrid. And somehow that changed him? I don't think so. I think he was always a horrible person, hiding behind this incredible guy, just waiting to come out. Does he even respect women? If he's telling someone he "loves" he wants them dead, then, wow. I'm glad it didn't get as far as physical abuse. It wouldn't have surprised me though, if it got that far. I wouldn't put it past him. There was one time I actually thought he was going to hit me, I was so scared, he was going off his face just because I didn't want to be alone at that stupid house we lived in. All I wanted was affection, for once. He ruined me.
I was so lonely, I lived with my fiancee but I was more lonely than I've ever been. More lonely than I am now and im single. Please explain how that works? No. I know how it works. I was in a worldly relationship with a selfish b****** who treated me like crap. I wanted him to notice me, I wanted affection and to be held and kissed like we used to do, I wanted to feel his love again. Even when he was home I was lonely, he didn't care about me at all. He didn't even help me. He didn't even comfort me. I asked him what he thought of me looks wise, because it had been that long since he'd said anything nice about me - he said "You're underaverage." and thought I was ridiculous when I got upset about it. Fair enough if I am, but far out he could have lied. And then he tried to tell me he was joking, but guess what, he never changed it. He never said anything better than underaverage. I was always just underaverage. I always will just be, underaverage. In his eyes anyway.
So I think I've explained to myself why it has taken me such a short time to get over him. If I could go back and change anything I wouldn't. Apart from making it so we never met, I wouldn't change the fact that we broke up. Actually, just before my birthday I broke up with him, because it was just crap. But then I missed him so i took him back. I would have not gone back to him if I could go back and change that. He was so unhealthy for me, he was like a poison ruining my life everytime I was with him. He was poisoning my thoughts, my self esteem, and my life.
Haha, I sound pretty messed up right now, but I actually am thoroughly enjoying life now, i've actually probably never been this happy. Thanks to him, for leaving me and giving me a chance of happiness :)
Weeping may endure for a night (there may be pain in the night), but Joy comes in the morning. Psalm 30:5
my beautiful babies
This is Harry and Shekira. Harry (the dark one) is my friend Ed's, and Shekira (the light one) is mine. They live at my house, and last night Harry escaped and we almost couldn't find him. Houdini. I love them :) 
Sunday, March 7, 2010
in bad situations
I have discovered that when I am in a bad situation and don't know what to do, I laugh? For example, someone asked me if my pop was dead once, and I laughed. Obviously I don't think its funny, but my body doesn't know how to react to such a hurtful question, so it makes me laugh.
Yesterday, I was with some friends and one of them asked me a question that no one has asked me before. It was very private and answering it hurt me, which unfortunately my answer to was yes. It was something that I don't like talking about, that hardly anyone else knows. And of course, I felt awkward, uncomfortable and hurt, so I laughed. I don't undersdtand why I do this? And I didn't feel hurt because my friend asked me, I felt hurt because it was bringing up memories. And no one has ever asked the question before, so I was shocked. I'm obviously not going to tell you the question, especially on the internet.. But if you think of something in your past that's really hurt you, and you're probably thinking it has something to do with my engagement that was called off? No. It's much bigger than that; you might be able to see how hard it was for me.
Last night I went to a course about grief, and that helped. But we were talking about a different kind of grief, more of a loss grief. But everyone knows I need that too! And now someone knows my answer to the question I'd never been asked.
When I should cry or scream in answer to horrible questions, why do I laugh? Does it have something to do with the fact that I'm generally a happy person? Or is it because of my pride, I don't want to breakdown in front of people - so I laugh instead? Or maybe, I want to cheer myself up in an instant so I laugh, sending a "natural high" to my brain? Or, maybe, I'm just weird...?
Yesterday, I was with some friends and one of them asked me a question that no one has asked me before. It was very private and answering it hurt me, which unfortunately my answer to was yes. It was something that I don't like talking about, that hardly anyone else knows. And of course, I felt awkward, uncomfortable and hurt, so I laughed. I don't undersdtand why I do this? And I didn't feel hurt because my friend asked me, I felt hurt because it was bringing up memories. And no one has ever asked the question before, so I was shocked. I'm obviously not going to tell you the question, especially on the internet.. But if you think of something in your past that's really hurt you, and you're probably thinking it has something to do with my engagement that was called off? No. It's much bigger than that; you might be able to see how hard it was for me.
Last night I went to a course about grief, and that helped. But we were talking about a different kind of grief, more of a loss grief. But everyone knows I need that too! And now someone knows my answer to the question I'd never been asked.
When I should cry or scream in answer to horrible questions, why do I laugh? Does it have something to do with the fact that I'm generally a happy person? Or is it because of my pride, I don't want to breakdown in front of people - so I laugh instead? Or maybe, I want to cheer myself up in an instant so I laugh, sending a "natural high" to my brain? Or, maybe, I'm just weird...?
Tuesday, March 2, 2010
the rules of engagement
To be engaged is obviously one of the most amazing feelings in the world. Or at least it should be. If you know me, you'll know that I was engaged. In the beginning it was beautiful, I couldn't be happier. But now nearly four months after we ended it, I am starting to realise that I was engaged for the wrong reason. I am convinced that "Mr X" only proposed to me to ensure I was faithful. He'd heard rumours that i'd cheated on him, which were incorrect, but to keep him at peace he proposed to me. I honestly believe he didn't want to marry me at the time, or any time he said he couldn't wait to. It's also obvious because when he proposed he didn't have a ring, it wasn't something that he'd been thinking about or planned; it just happened one night. And because our relationship was long distance for more than half of it, he couldn't be sure that I was faithful - so I guess he thought if he put a ring on my finger it would give me insentive to behave. Even though the whole time I was faithful, and he was the one who was sleeping around behind my back. He probably thought "well, I love Ash but i've cheated on her, so what's stopping her from cheating on me?" No. I do not work like that. If i'm in a relationship with someone I mean it. Just like I meant it when I got engaged, when he proposed was the best night of my whole life. Not long after I "became his properety" more permenently he turned ugly. He was not a nice boy. And I say boy because even though he is a 22 year old man, he has so much growing up to do. In saying that when he proposed was the best night of my life, when he broke up with me to do drugs was the worst. But only four months later that horrid day has turned into the best day of my life. Obviously I remember the pain I felt, and how heart broken I was - but my life would have been miserable with such a nasty, selfish and decietful boy.
I look forward to being engaged again - I hate that there is an "again" - and this time to the right person. Someoone who wants to actually marry me, not someone who is doing it to simply control my actions. Marriage is going to be spectacular, especially with the right person. I really look forward to finding the right man and settling down, it will be my best adventure yet :)
I look forward to being engaged again - I hate that there is an "again" - and this time to the right person. Someoone who wants to actually marry me, not someone who is doing it to simply control my actions. Marriage is going to be spectacular, especially with the right person. I really look forward to finding the right man and settling down, it will be my best adventure yet :)
Monday, March 1, 2010
if i go crazy then will you still call me superman?
There are no words, to paint a picture of you girl
Your eyes, those curves, it's like you're from some other world
You walk my way, oh God is so frustrating.
It aint no lie, I have to tell you how I feel,
Each time, I try it gets a little more unreal,
You walk my way,oh God is so frustrating.
So why do I disappear when you come near,
It makes me feel so small,
If I could read your mind,
Girl would I find, any trace of me at all.
If I could be your superman,
I'd fly you to the stars and back again.
'cause everytime you touched my hand,
You feel my powers running through your veins.
But I can only write this song,
And tell you that I'm not that strong.
Cause I'm no superman, I hope you like me as I am.
Your eyes, those curves, it's like you're from some other world
You walk my way, oh God is so frustrating.
It aint no lie, I have to tell you how I feel,
Each time, I try it gets a little more unreal,
You walk my way,oh God is so frustrating.
So why do I disappear when you come near,
It makes me feel so small,
If I could read your mind,
Girl would I find, any trace of me at all.
If I could be your superman,
I'd fly you to the stars and back again.
'cause everytime you touched my hand,
You feel my powers running through your veins.
But I can only write this song,
And tell you that I'm not that strong.
Cause I'm no superman, I hope you like me as I am.
Sunday, February 28, 2010
the discomfort of four walls
Lately, I haven't been getting many shifts at my work, because last month they spent an extra $20,000 on staff wages. As much as anyone would love to only work on the weekends like I've been doing, I actually am not enjoying it. First for the obvious reason of not getting paid as much as I need to, but also because I find myself sitting at home all day doing nothing.
Lately I've made really amazing friends and have been thouroughly enjoying my life and time with them, it's just days like today when they're all busy with work, or Uni or Tafe and i'm just sitting at home chilling out with myself. It's extremely boring and lonely.
When I'm working I hate it, I'd rather be with friends and they do things like road trips to Newcastle and I have to work. But we do have fun times, like dress ups to celebrate the Mardi Gras. Back to the point, IM BORED. Im lonely right now. I'd rather be at work counting money - as boring as that is - but at least i'd have something to occupy me. Even if I had a decent TV series to watch i'd be alright. But that's a waste of a day. The weather isn't too swell but I like to achieve at least one thing evach day. Today, I haven't achieved anything. What a disappointment.
Lately I've made really amazing friends and have been thouroughly enjoying my life and time with them, it's just days like today when they're all busy with work, or Uni or Tafe and i'm just sitting at home chilling out with myself. It's extremely boring and lonely.
When I'm working I hate it, I'd rather be with friends and they do things like road trips to Newcastle and I have to work. But we do have fun times, like dress ups to celebrate the Mardi Gras. Back to the point, IM BORED. Im lonely right now. I'd rather be at work counting money - as boring as that is - but at least i'd have something to occupy me. Even if I had a decent TV series to watch i'd be alright. But that's a waste of a day. The weather isn't too swell but I like to achieve at least one thing evach day. Today, I haven't achieved anything. What a disappointment.
Friday, February 26, 2010
realistion
Last night I came to the realisation that I still have the want to be someones girlfriend. This selfish desire is something that I need to get rid of. As much as I would't complain if someone wanted me back, but that isn't my main focus. Or, my focus at all. Like I said in a previous blog, I need to work on becoming the right woman through God, and being the best future girlfriend and/or wife, before I worry about getting the right boyfriend.
Matthew 6:25-27
"Therefore I tell you, do not worry.." and it goes on.
Matthew 6:25-27
"Therefore I tell you, do not worry.." and it goes on.
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
happy birthday
Today, not the 28th like I said in a previous blog, is my Pops birthday. He would have turned 79 today. I miss him so much! And I love him more than every single leaf that has ever fallen from every single tree in autumn since the beginning of creation! He was my hero, I looked up to him so much and I don't want to "brag" but he was so proud of me.
There are things from my past that if he knew he wouldn't be so proud of, but he died before most of my mistakes so he im glad he was ever only proud of me.
Im so glad im going to see him again when I die, it excites me. But it doesn't fill the void in my heart when I miss him. I just want a hug from my Pop ♥Im getting really sick of people dying, especially when they don't know God. How unfair is that? Gods love is so beautiful, and He loves everyone. It's hard to believe, but he even loves that man in Bundaburg who murdered the eight year old girl, and He loves the man in the US who was a doctor, and raped more than one hundred little girls. It's very hard to believe that God can love and forgive them of their mistakes. Its a little disgusting that He can forgive so easily, but thats why He's God, because he's amazing and compassionate beyond belief. I cannot express how much God amazes me. Look at this picture, it's my Mum and her Dad, my Pop. Look how proud he is, and how much love is expressed through his face. I believe that is exactly how God looks at us, His children, every single day.
Once a month, I think (don't quote me), Good News Church has a Generation night instead of Youth, and this Friday the 26th of February, 2010, we are having an encounter night. This night is going to be incredible and God is going to work wonders in all of us! I am going to expect change in not only myself, but in others and the community. My generation of youth and teenagers are too preoccupied with sex and drugs, and it fills a hole while it lasts, but only God can fill the emptiness forever. Only God can fill my soul. From this day forth, I give Him my whole heart.
Sunday, February 21, 2010
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